oh Jesus Christ.....

Gave girl $25 so she would shut the hell up at me...

Bankroll = 242.96

I'm Back!!!

Just a brief segment of joy before the next inevitable string of disappointment.

I took first from a field of 1003 it a $1 NLHE tournament on full tilt for a cash of $225.67. At least now I have something to lose. That's a good thing right? Having something to lose?

The Usual...

Aces up with nut flush draw on flop +  the bubble + me shoving against big stacked opponent = big stacked opponent hits his set on turn.

This is the way of my world. I want to reach through the internet and strangle a bitch!

Failings lead to bankroll of $44.47.

Freeroll day

Ridiculous fields today. Playing the MiniFTOPS Warm Up, a field of 50,000 players competing for a prize pool of $50,000. $2400 to first place. 5 minute blinds, 1500 stacks. Should be a total donkfest,

The Luck Continues

I don't know how, but I placed 4th in a 45 player $1 sit and go for $4.50. That was pretty neat. And these kids keep throwing dimes at me, so I pick them up. They obviously don't need them like I do. I cherish each and every one.

Ended the session at $48.51. Yay.

Can't sleep

In a fit insomnia and mild illness of unknown nature, I make a mad dash for the next $10 release of my holiday bonus from Full Tilt. The fortune continues as the roll is now again over $40.

Lucky day!

Well, The Men Who Stare at Goats sucked pretty bad. Anyway...

Lucked out and had every flop hit me in the micro limit game and ended up at a grateful $31.52. I'd like to say that I played well, but it just wasn't the case.

Slow day

Won't be playing much poker today. It's girl's b-day, and we're going to see The Men Who Stare at Goats and get some grub.

No more poker today

Played better than usual in a dollar rebuy tournament. Donked out about 90th out of about 300. Only had to rebuy twice and add on once.

Sitting somewhere around $26

Again with the losing

Played a couple more $1 tournaments in hopes of becoming independently wealthy. To no avail. Even went out on the first hand in one of them.

Sitting at $30.08 :-(

Not again!

In middle position, I look down at AK of spades and raise to 1800, three times the big blind. The big blind just calls. I'm a little short stacked, about 27K. The flop comes and between a 7 and a 2 lies that beautiful ace of clubs, so I shove it...

To be a better poker player....

I think I've identified a hole in my game. Earlier I found myself searching google images of Morena Baccarin, you know, Anna, the leader of the reptilian visitors in the TV show "V". She's so frickin' HOT!!!

Anyway, I was thinking maybe if I didn't do that, I would be a better poker player.

...so HOT!!!

STUPID SUCKOUT BITCHES!!!

To turn two pairs with QT offsuit only to raise all in and have a J fall on the river. AK good all day...

Nice hand douchebag, wherever you are.

No $26 tournament token for me today. Hopefully I'll fare better in the daily dollar rebuy. Luckily, you're allowed to buy into that game with full tilt points. My only hope...

Up a little bit

$33.70...

Came up a little bit today while playing 5/10 cent waiting for the daily dollar rebuy tournament and a 50 FTP tournament token game. I hope I don't do anything stupid and get lucky as hell. That's all I can do...

Got there

Only had to lose about a buck fitty to get that $10. Up to $30.89. Gonna try some dollar donkathons tomorrow. Hopefully I can fold into the money.

Almost there....

Only $2.33 left til the next bonus release....

God I hope I can make it. If I could only make that next $10, I might be able to catch up.

God, I suck...

$22.29. That's all that's left.

In July of this year, I deposited $200 on Full Tilt Poker in hopes of becoming a winner. I guess it was just not meant to be. Today, I find myself grinding dimes on the micro-limit tables. Chasing. Trying to catch up somehow by reaching the next $10 increment of the holiday bonus offer. Do you know how long it takes to pay enough rake to make the requirement for that next payout at $.05/$.10 limit poker? About THREE DAYS!!!

And yet I continue. I can't stop. I'm a hopeless degenerate.